Life is so funny.
Youth is so dynamic, so fleeting and so confusing. Wow. I can't believe how much I feel like I am evolving. I know it sounds strange but I am starting to understand things like I never have before. You know what they say...your 20s are for making mistakes...well I don't want my 30s for making up for them! I am so happy that I have gotten to this point. I am so much better than I was 3, 2, 1 years or even 6-months ago.
I know what I need to do...I have a secret plan in my head. Its getting easier as the days go on to understand what is necessary. Sure, I am still going to make stupid mistakes and sure I am still going to regret "somethings" but hey what is life about...
Alright as I write this I am only 25 years old and in 10 years I will re-read it, remember writing it and laugh. So a note to my future self, no I do not believe I have reached the height of my development but I am happy to see how I am progressing.
Part of that progression is an acceptance of one's limitations in life. I am not seeking of physical or mental ones or even emotional. I am speaking of the limitations of well, everyday life. These ads and books we see are written by people with time, money and resources. If you are young and have none of the above then you aren't going to get the results "they have". Being jealous is not a solution. That just furthers the problem at hand.
Anyway, what is my point to all this? Well, perhaps I have none except to say that I understand things a bit better today than I did yesterday. The strength I have is from inside myself only. For a while I sought that strength from others and was, not suprisingly, disappointed. I believed that there was something fundamentally wrong with me. Well, there never was.
Anyway, I will stop this for now. I will give you more update later on when I get a chance.
peace.
Youth is so dynamic, so fleeting and so confusing. Wow. I can't believe how much I feel like I am evolving. I know it sounds strange but I am starting to understand things like I never have before. You know what they say...your 20s are for making mistakes...well I don't want my 30s for making up for them! I am so happy that I have gotten to this point. I am so much better than I was 3, 2, 1 years or even 6-months ago.
I know what I need to do...I have a secret plan in my head. Its getting easier as the days go on to understand what is necessary. Sure, I am still going to make stupid mistakes and sure I am still going to regret "somethings" but hey what is life about...
Alright as I write this I am only 25 years old and in 10 years I will re-read it, remember writing it and laugh. So a note to my future self, no I do not believe I have reached the height of my development but I am happy to see how I am progressing.
Part of that progression is an acceptance of one's limitations in life. I am not seeking of physical or mental ones or even emotional. I am speaking of the limitations of well, everyday life. These ads and books we see are written by people with time, money and resources. If you are young and have none of the above then you aren't going to get the results "they have". Being jealous is not a solution. That just furthers the problem at hand.
Anyway, what is my point to all this? Well, perhaps I have none except to say that I understand things a bit better today than I did yesterday. The strength I have is from inside myself only. For a while I sought that strength from others and was, not suprisingly, disappointed. I believed that there was something fundamentally wrong with me. Well, there never was.
Anyway, I will stop this for now. I will give you more update later on when I get a chance.
peace.
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