Wow. Forgotten. I haven't felt as free in a long time. Peaceful. Content. Self-assured. The ghosts of Christmas past are all but forgotten. Or perhaps the reality in which I live is so artificial... I side more with the quantum physicts sense of the universe: reality is only what is in front of us. We make it ourselves, in our heads. Anyway I am taking garbage here. Its hard to be philopshical when its 80 degrees out and people have christmas decrortations around. I dont know where in the world I am but here is better...its like a sweet dream. Maybe I died.