The change must start internally. It is a movement of the soul, of mind, of spirit. It is only after long, drawn out deliberation and confrontation that the internal struggle has a chance of survival: thus the revolution has begun. To be genuine it must start within.

The seeking is bitter alienation. It is humiliating, isolating and awkwardly uncomfortable, but worth every bloody second.

(I have understood the true nature of God.)

I have embraced a reality in my soul that no longer exists to my kafir lips – my forgotten gospel.