To RB

I was re-reading some of my past blog entries re: u and realized you may get the wrong impression regarding how I feel about you. 1) I don't hate you, I just strongly dislike you. Why? Well, I could sit here and list specifics, but that is not going to help either of us. We both know how we feel about each other and, most likely, no amount of time will change that. I just hope you start acting like a man and take responsibility for your "creations" vs. running away and making excuses for WHY you shouldn't be responsible.

Eventually all that bottled up frustration is going to surface. Look, it is already affecting your relationships with people and I am sure it makes you doubt yourself too. Be a man, face the music and try to make up what you have already taken away from the people who trusted you.

Listen, you don't owe me anything and me the same. Basically writing this is a waste of my time, because even if you read it you would never follow through. Most likely you will be delusional the rest of your life. It's ok to fuck your life up, but its criminal to screw with the lives of others.

One last thing, regarding me paying you back with a holiday...come here whenever you want. I will give you free food and shelter for as long as you like (within reason).

Either way, I wish you peace even if you wish me pain:)